I'm hungry!!

Today i awake at 7.30am, n guess wat's the first thing i did...

Ran into toilet... n.... ... ... .. .. .....

aiks... i rili dono wat i ate ydy... my stomach went upsite down... arghh... went toilet for few times n... ... today is F9 exam... As i said... ydy i din touch my book at all.. at first i plan to wake up at 9 o'clock one... how i know i awake so early.. perhaps God wants me to study earlier or wat... but arghhhh... keep feel like going to toilet...

end up lying on bed doing nth... i feel like nt going to the F9 exam one... but i don wanto take tis as my excuse so that i don need to sit for exam... haha...

then... my mom use a traditional way that my granmother taught to cure this symptoms.. that is... drink BOH TEA... yup... boh tea... funny right... but something miraculous is that i rili feels better aft that wei... so funny... my grandma rili BOLEH la... haha...

then i start study n study... walao... i rili scared F9 from now on edi... i totally dono wat am i studying... is like the more i read the more panic i'll be... haha... i was paying attention n i have nvr skip any F9 classes.. but when i wanto do recap tt time i was like totally blank...

haha... i was keep complaining that my lecturer doesn't teach tis paper well... always skip theory la... din let us know the full picture la... everything... n i tot everyone would think the same as i think... (seriously quite many ppl think the same as i think la...)

but just now b4 exam i met a smart girl... i was complaining to her abt that.. n she says, "but i think she teach until quite good ler..' haha... then i found out... is my fault la... nt doing revision everyday n din start studying earlier..

keke... make me feel so bad now... nvm nvm... luckily is just MOCK n not final... hee...

okay... back to my title... as i am having the stomache problem, i don know wat to eat... end up i bought a sandwiches from cafeteria.. hee... that's before exam... which means is around 1 o'clock..

but now... wuu... so hungry... stil waiting for my mom...

i wonder wat wil i eat later ler... hopefully is something satisfying la.. keke..

MOCK exam

haha... just finish F8 mock... and just to say that... i din try my best this time... tomorow is F9 mock... and i am not going to study too... a while later going out for dinner n tonight will be having meeting... haha..

I left tomorow morning, n perhaps tonight 11 to late midnight...(i don think i will..) to study for F9... haha... i rili let go this mock exam, the first time being so ignorance of my exams... luckily is just a MOCk, n not final.... too many things to do edi...

i miss my church fren a lot.. i've skip prayer meeting, saturday night service, n ydy committee meeting... aiks...

two more weeks... is their wedding... aiya... i haven buy my white heels... n... i am trying to find out when can we have another practise for the dance... but... seems like there's no more time already... hmmm... just need to pray that they will do their best for beng n fa..

one more thing... their costume... aiks... rili dono how... although we have the idea... but i am going to find for them... i wonder where to find so many skirts.. flower suites for the guy.. all that...

ah... God... help me...

rili hope that everything run smoothly on the actual day as our wish...

and.. i think this mock exam results would best reflect my understanding during class time... as... i din do revision at all...

don worry mama... i wont do this during actual final exams... i promise... : )

i've post a new song there.. is rili a nice song...

i am very bad at it.. i want it to be auto played... but it isnt..

i want the full song version, but it is 30seconds only...

nvm... just click to listen the full song if u want.. is rili nice...

i just want you

sometimes i dono why will i feel like hiding myself for a few days.. not going to coll.. not going anywhere.. not bothering anything...

and let myself cool down then only come back...

something funny...

i am now suffering a very very serious mood swing.... ...
i can be happy in appearance... but turn away n scolding someone... after a moment i will be very silent... n suddenly i cried.. and then happy again...

i dono la... don like all this...

i rili feel like having some time to be alone... without affecting those ppl beside me...

how?!?!

on the other hand i cant stand myself by just lying on the bed... sitting on the sofa... doing nothing... wondering all around..

next week is MOCK exam... next two weeks is beng's wedding... one month plus is my final... n i hope to earn more money... make mama happy.. make me happy... got a room that is super messy to tidy up before the marriage...

i got tonnes of things to do...

which one shud i do first.. huh?!?!

me myself oso dono wat shud i do first...
n i don like getting advice from ppl, when i am in current situation... i dono why.. i know they are trying to help me, but i just feel tt no one can understand this kinda feeling...

i planned to sleep at first, after having PAPA JOHN with another 10 person...

when i am lying on the bed.. listening to the song...

then i know what i want...

what i want is just, GOD...

my lovely heavenly father..

even though i cant see him.. cant listen to his voice.. but i know that he wil lead me through..

i wont deny that,
i will stil have that feeling of frustration, but at least i know that i am not lost..

i wont say that it is some miraculous feeling that i feel very 'okay' after that....

but...

at least i know i am not walking alone...

when i fall in love

haha... cinderella...